What are emotions? Scientifically these are hormones gone wild, technically they are all about bodily senses and bodily sensors, signal and receiver, all biological. But what about what we feel? I have been through strange emotional turmoil in the process of growing up for the obvious reason – Love! Everyone should fall in love I feel, just to experience these feelings of strangeness. How depression can make you skip dinner or get you drenched in rain without you even feeling it. But why do we feel sad? Why do we cry? How can we love and hate the same person the most in the world? I wish I knew.
I am a very emotional person, I cry while watching every other movie. I feel emptiness in my stomach every time something bad happens. Something as little as missing home brings tears to my eyes. Right now all I can do is write in my blog about it, but I might have to visit a psychiatrist soon!
Music triggers my emotion like very few people can. Sadness means listening to depressing numbers, when I’m happy I listen to high (James Blunt!) numbers. And when I’m feeling like crap, I think of the capped bugger and how I’d rather feel like crap than listen to his nasal music!
No matter what people say, there’s a pleasure in sadness. There is a certain unexplained satisfaction somewhere inside when we are low; in fact, when it comes to being in love, we tend to enjoy the feelings of depression. I feel sadness is the best emotion one can feel. The feeling when your gut seems empty, tear ducts are working overtime, your eyes are wet and finally, the first drop of tear floats down your cheeks, is, in one word, heavenly. Someone who has never felt this has been deprived of the best feeling in the word.
It is hard to cry. For someone like me, motivation is prerequisite. Usually it’s a song that brings back wonderful memories or a really touchy movie that makes my day. Sometimes it so happens that I am engulfed in misery and yet tears won’t come. That is the worst part, you want to cry, but the tears won’t come (Rod Steward!). It happens to me, I feel drenched in pain and yet my eyes are dry. Emergency! Instantly Windows Media Player starts. I probably start with James Blunt – Second Chance, or maybe Kitni Baatein (sung by Hariharan and Sadhna Sargam, OST – Lakshya) or Akhri Alvida by Strings (OST – Shootout At Lokhandwala). There’s always Cry by James Blunt, which is so smooth and enticing (If you want to, talk about what will be, come and sit with me, Cry - on my shoulder, I’m a friend). Here’s a list of few lesser known lacrimal gland inducers of my choice:
- · Second Chance – James Blunt (OST – P.S. I Love You)
- · Kitni Baatein – Hariharan & Sadhna (OST – Lakshya)
- · Akhri Alvida – Strings (OST – Shootout At Lokhandwala)
- · Goodbye My Lover – James Blunt
- · Ab Naa Jaa – Euphoria
- · Apitaf – Aurthohin
- · Melt the Snow – Shane Ward
- · Heaven (Unplugged) – Bryan Adams
- · Whisky Lullaby – Brad Praisley
- · Forgiveness – Eagles
- · The Girl from Yesterday – Eagles
- · Bholajaina – Nochiketa (OST – Jackpot)
It’s not just about the music of these songs; it’s mostly about their lyrics. They churn your feelings if you try to realise.
But time is the best eraser, like they all say. With time we forget everything, every pain, every distress. There was a time when you might not be able to imagine life without that special person in your life, but with time, you learn to accept their absence, you take the pain for so long that it hurts no more; instead you smile with your pains. And one fine day, it’s all gone, like they never existed. Instead they come back to us at varied frequencies, suddenly after months we feel their absence once, and after maybe an hour or hardly a day of remembrance, they are gone again. This is because, sadness maybe sweet, but it is a temporary emotion, and happiness prevails. We are not meant to be sad, this world will stop if everyone holds on to their losses and ceases to be happy.
Beautiful dawn - You're just blowing my mind again.
Thought I was born to endless night, until you shine.
High; running wild among all the stars above..... High by James Blunt (Listen to the song....)
Thought I was born to endless night, until you shine.
High; running wild among all the stars above..... High by James Blunt (Listen to the song....)
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